Healing
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27 & A Little Bit More Me
I woke up this morning and realized…I’m 27. I, Charlie Amáyá Scott, am 27 years old. It feels so…I’m not sure how to adequately describe it. Surreal? Unreal? Surprise? Sad? Joyous? All these feelings and yet so much more and less at the same time. 27 just feels like an age that does not necessarily…
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It’s Been A Year
Content Warning: Sexual Assault / Rape. For those who have not read Perfect Moment(s), I was raped exactly one year ago, the night of December 4, 2019 or the early morning of December 5, 2020. It’s been a year. 12 months. 52 weeks. 365 days since the night of my assault. I decided to share…
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Perfect Moment(s): My 25th Birthday
Content Warning: Death, Sexual Assault, and Rape. It has been so long since I have written anything here. The last thing I wrote was in December. Three months later and the world feels so much different than my last post. There is a sort of haunting beauty with that revelation as I celebrate my 25th…
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The Right Sequence: Guardians, Innovators, & Guides
I have these childhood memories of dancing, closing my eyes, and hoping that with the right sequence of steps and grace, I could call forth the rain. Then, there it was. The raindrops kissing my skin. The mud caressing my feet. My body bursting with joy and laughter being liberated. I remember the strike of…
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Loving Myself in Colonized Spaces
Over the last few weeks, as we entered the 2019 Gregorian New Year, I have been thinking about love, specifically love for myself, self-love. I have been thinking of the ways that my love has been colonized, how it has been modified and twisted in ways that aligned with what/who is considered desirable and what/who…
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Photography as Storytelling
Several months ago, I submitted the above photo in a contest sponsored by URI Research and Scholarship. It was the first time that I shared my photo without filtering my audience. The photo submitted was also my re-entry into photography, as I have been neglecting it since I graduated last year. I am happy to…
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A Promise & 23rd Celebration
I did it. I made it to my 23rd birthday. This is a celebration because I promised myself it would be. “But today is different. From now on, my birthdays will be different. Today, I plan to celebrate this day to celebrate myself. Because turning 22 is an achievement.” – Today is My 22nd Birthday I…
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Trauma & Broken Bones
March is almost here, and it is the month of the Gregorian calendar in which I was born during. It is usually at this time that I begin to reflect a lot about the year that I experienced and the year that I envision. Yet, as February ends and 2018 continues, I have been thinking…
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Being Home: Emerging 2018 Thoughts
It has been twenty-three days since the start of 2018. Since December 20, 2017, I have been in the midst of the red mesas and canyon walls familiar to my soul; surrounded by the juniper berries and slumbering yucca plants, healing and reflecting upon the completion of 2017 and my first semester of graduate school.…
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Niłch’itsoh, Hai, and Power
The coming of the big wind and snow. Niłch’itsoh is here, and that means Hai (winter) is on its way. Niłch’itsoh means “big wind” and is the beginning of Hai (winter). It is also the last month, December, of the Gregorian calendar. This year, Niłch’itsoh and Hai remind me of something. They remind me of power. Growing…